Pizza Was Supposed to Comfort Me

My friend and I attempted to finish our assessments in a cafe earlier, as it turns out a change in scenery doesn’t help much if you are not really interested in doing it. I don’t even know why I lack the motivation to do it. It’s not because I’m home sick, is it? It cannot be the reason.

Anyway, so on our way back to our dorm, we got pizza and wine to help us, even just a little. However, it did not work. I still haven’t started on any of the remaining three papers I need to do and I only have two days – that is if I don’t sleep AT ALL.

I just don’t see how I am going to start the assessment. Since the practice and method here is self study, I feel like there is no structure to what I am doing. I don’t really know what they are looking for in my paper, so again, my mind has a million different ideas, I just don’t know how to structure it. As you can probably tell from my blogs, I’m not the best story teller.

Back to work, I guess.

Day 10: Trying to keep on track

Second day of classes for the week. We had business dissertation earlier, and like any other module we have, it’s at ‘100mph’ as they call it. I’m still thinking of a topic or a certain area to research on. All I have so far is this: The viability of Coffee Shops (e.g. local, Starbucks, or Costa) in the UK against the viability of Coffee Shops in the Philippines.

I chose to do a comparison for the UK and the Philippines, basically because it’s where I am from. However, I wanted to do something even more specific right now. I just can’t get on the right track or the path that I wanted. I’m still thinking though, any ideas dear friends? I usually run to my guitar for creative thinking. Sadly enough, I wasn’t really capable of bringing my guitar with me – with my huge luggage and hand-carry bag (includes my heavy laptop, camera, and the sort).

Then in the evening, it’s weird for me that they start really late too, we had a taster for Volleyball. I was thinking of joining Swimming but then again, I thought of the weather and temperature here (still not used to it). Bench-warming the bench because – haha – I did not bring my trainers (rubber shoes), not that I had any because a-duh I like wearing my converse when playing. So, I still have to buy one if I really wanted to play.

Well, that’s all I can really share for tonight or in the other parts of the world, today.

I’ll leave you again with another lovely song (maybe I’ll do this out of habit, I don’t know).


Day 7 to 9 (I think): First Day of Class

I keep forgetting to update this on a daily basis, and now I’ve literally forgotten how many days I have to cover, and which day I am on. Anyway, from Friday until Sunday, we obviously did nothing but to walk around the City Centre (again), and bought groceries that are good for a week.

Then, yesterday (which was Sunday), we attended a mass. It was really different from what I’m used to back in the Philippines. However, the ‘church community’ – I’m just guessing they already know each other for quite sometime now, was really friendly and they welcomed us with warm greetings and hand shakes. So overall, it does’t really matter for me how the mass was offered, as long as I was able to give thanks.

Finally, today was our first day of classes. It’s quite difficult to adjust to the method that they have here. It’s all very independent learning but I find it good and effective because it means that you really have to work hard and not expect everything to be spoon-fed to you. I quite like the library in Chester as well because they have a huge collection of useful books – which I’m afraid cannot be accessed in a Philippine Library (we have to work on that *wink*). Being the bookish person that I am, I feel so comfortable inside the Library.

Anyway, that is it for today. I only have one class tomorrow and it’s at 5PM. What am I supposed to do in the morning? Lol.

I’m still adjusting to the time here, because it feels so slow. So, when I go to sleep at 10PM, I keep waking up at 2 or 3 in the morning thinking I’ve had a good 8 hours of sleep already. It feels that long anyway.

I’ll leave you with The Narrative’s lullaby-like song Eyes Closed.


9 February 2014

Sorry about the title, I can’t think of one to completely capture the contents of this post as a whole.

Reading: City Of Bones

So far, I’ve read half of the book, and I can’t seem to find the time to finish it because of well, TV series. But I’m really determined to finish it within this month. Then move on to City of Ashes – which I’ve recently acquired. It was so hard to find a copy of the succeeding books in The Mortal Instruments series, probably because of the movie. But sadly, as always, the book is still better than the movie. I don’t know, it’s just me.

Playlist: A combination of Arctic Monkeys & Green Day

Can’t seem to get the song Mardy Bum from the Arctic Monkeys out of my head. It’s so catchy and I love the lyrics of the song. Then, I keep playing R U Mine?  also from the Arctic Monkeys; Nuclear Family  Green Day; Lazy Bones – Green Day; and lastly, Why’d You Only Call Me When You’re High – Arctic Monkeys.

Watching: Supernatural Season 2

I KNOW. I have a long way to go, but I’ve finished S4 already. I didn’t have the copy of S2 last week, so I thought I would still understand S4 without watching the second and third season. I got bits and pieces figured out, however, if you like the details like I do, I’d still watch it completely. So, wasted no time and bought S2 and S3.

School Related Stuff:

Almost finished with my Financial Systems & Accounting term paper – the first one at least. Haven’t started with Working With And Leading People’s term paper, which is due on the 21st by the way – so get on it already, my inner voice tells me. Anyway, I have research project, which is the longest one of them all. So yeah, that’s about it.

What have you guys been up to?

Daily Prompt: Obstacle Course (to UK)

Daily Prompt from: Daily Post

Well hello WordPress! It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything and this is a great time to post something.

It’s is sort of an explanation as well as to why I haven’t been around lately.

It is the last term of this school year, and students are in knee-deep work load and requirements to finish such as term papers, or preparations for exams. However, in the school I’m attending at, it’s quite different.

We are currently finishing another 7 term papers, one of which is a very long research paper, and preparing our Curriculum Vitae (or what we call Resume) for our internships to be able to graduate, and at the same time I’m preparing my documents for the plans to study in UK.

What a load huh? But it is all working out well. Aside from those things, I’ve also joined a group of students to compete in this year’s Digital Marketing Competition of Google!

Anyway, we were talking about OBSTACLES. My obstacles to be able to reach my goal – which is to study in UK for my top-up – are as follows:

  1. 7 term papers!
  2. Internship of 300 hours (Would not be able to graduate without completing both)
  3. Graduation
  4. LAZINESS – in terms of waking up at 6AM in the morning every day to get to class on time – which is my biggest obstacle right now.

I guess that’d be it. Nothing really bad-serious. It’s just that in my point of view, it seems to much to think about, and I have to finish everything by August. So, yeah.

God Speed to everyone facing a much challenging obstacle than I am!

One day

A Bad Day

When thoughts of all but one,

are those I am keeping.

When sore though there is none,

for whom I am weeping.

A curtain drawn before the sun,

And I wish to go on sleeping.

– Love & Misadventure, Lang Leav

I am mentally exhausted from all the paper work.

Sometimes, it is really tiring to be taking care of every body and carrying what feels like the weight of the world on your shoulders. I love my family, I love my brothers, I love helping people out, God knows I can’t help it, but sometimes it gets too tiring because everybody gets comfortable that you’ll do everything yourself. Who am I to complain? I did this to myself. If only I learn how to stop taking responsibility for everything.

I just feel mentally and physically exhausted balancing school and family. Being the eldest is really a tough job. It requires a lot of attention, a lot of patience, and a lot of understanding. You always have to give way in order for them to be happy. I love doing those things – it’s just really tiring at times, and frustrating. I feel like the youth is being sucked out of me. I feel like a granny already.

I have things that I would like to do as well. Like, be able to finish reading my books, or have a little privacy once in a while, or be able to visit the salon again after three months (cause I must admit, I can feel my hair becoming damaged). I want to have fun, but in my own terms. I know it may sound so whiny but I don’t get to spend an hour alone for my own stress-relieving activity. Whenever I’m alone, it’s because I’m doing school work. I think my only, truly, alone time is when I SLEEP or whenever I’m in the shower – oh no wait, my little brother still bugs me whenever I’m in the shower, little attention seeker, lol.

So yeah, just wanted to let some negative energy out without hurting anyone.

Here’s a song from The Beatles to those who are working so hard, you guys deserve a year long worth of sleep! Lol.