What are you really scared of?

Edge Of The World by DeviantArt user drakmin (http://drakmin.deviantart.com) under Photography/ People & Portraits/ Fashion Portraits

Sometimes we use the word ‘scared’ lightly because it can pertain to anything, from being scared of spiders to being scared of the dark. There are different levels of being ‘scared.’

I have been thinking about the things that makes me scared – and not in the light, being scared of cockroaches (which I am) by the way. I thought about what makes me terrified – scared that I do not think I can overcome. I wouldn’t say that I am not scared of dying – cause I am. I wouldn’t say that I am not scared of death – cause I am. But what I realized is why I am scared of dying or death. I am terrified of what I would be losing and gaining all at once.

I would be losing the world, the ability to use my senses and be in the world that we know.

I would be losing the physical capability to be around my loved ones.

I would be losing time.

I would be losing the privilege to absorb the beauty of the world.

However, I am most terrified of what comes next..

I do not believe that in death, nothing comes next. I would like to believe that, when one passes – there’s still a next chapter.

So maybe I am scared of not knowing at all?

What about you? What are you scared of?


Song #7: I Don’t Wanna Be

I forgot to mention one more of my addictions, aside from the obvious of course, watching TV series. I watch the types of TV series that are more grounded to reality than say, Sci-Fi? Still, I appreciate different kinds of series. Although, when it comes to the point that I can only choose one – oh wait, I’m sorry but I can’t — at least three, I would definitely say:

1) One Tree Hill
2) House, MD
3) How I Met Your Mother

And this song is the opening music for One Tree Hill. I’ve missed watching that series. Maybe I will watch it again. Soon.

For those of you who has seemingly missed the existence of OTH, hopefully none; it is about real life situations. Family, friends, sacrifices, trust, honesty, love, difficulties, strong relationships, people coming, people leaving, people staying, people leaving a mark, and many more. I find it relatable in a way that it portrays real life situations – if not all of it. It seems like the closest TV series that was able to connect on some level with its audience and was able to dig deeper, and give meaning and understanding to those situations. The ending was not necessarily the “fairytale-happy-ending-type” but it was more of a happy ending in a sense that, there were no regrets, there was acceptance. Acceptance of choices, acceptance of who you are as a person, and acceptance that life is unpredictable. It should be taken day by day.

Okay, okay, what is this girl talking about again.
With that, I will leave you with this wonderful song.

Key Word: Acceptance