EXHALE

I’m moving back home! It’s a good news – for my mom mostly, but I am glad that I am going home.

HOWEVER, there’s a lot to do before I could go home. So I am renting a double room in a five bedroom flat right? And my renewed contract is for 12 months – I know how stupid of me, but I thought that I would be able to find work here – anyway, so I’ve been looking all day for possible suitable replacements. IT IS STRESSING ME OUT. And the agency that is holding this property is, well not very professional and nice too, so added stress.

Plus – here’s the cherry on top, it’s THAT time of the month wherein girls are very fragile, crazy, and unpredictable. So I sort of cried a while ago, but you know what, it’s fine. It’s okay to cry and feel weak for a while.  I found that crying for a bit helps a lot in releasing the negative things building up inside – like feeling hopeless, sadness, and anxiousness. Crying and letting your guard down helps to clear it out and get it out of your system.

Then after that weak moment, you will feel ready to tackle the obstacle once again with a clear head.

That’s all for now. I am still tackling my ‘obstacle’ ha. :)

 

Now

I haven’t blogged since July – I think. I’ve been occupied since I got out of uni and I just wanted to share what I’ve been up to.

Firstly, I moved to London. That’s probably the scariest part and it was hard because I had to do it alone – from booking a moving van, booking train tickets and making sure that I arrived before the moving van does, living arrangements, and paying monthly bills. Then a couple of days after I moved to London, I went back home to the Philippines for two months. Those two months were great. I got to spend time with my brothers again, taking the youngest one to school and checking their homework and projects. It was heartbreaking to leave that time.

And now, I’m back in London. I’ve been back for almost three weeks now and it feels like I’ve never even left. It’s a weird feeling but because you are familiar with your surroundings – and made a routine in that environment – it’s easy to adjust back. I also got the opportunity to tour around East London more. There are so many places to see in London – and I am telling you now, for a chill night out go to Shoreditch. (Make sure to visit Bull in a China ShopDrunken MonkeyQueens of Hoxton – Rooftop, and BLOCKShoreditch)

I’m enjoying every site, every experience, and the people I share it with but at the end of the day, I still feel like something is missing. Maybe I miss home, more than I expected to. A part of me wants to explore many more places but a part of me would rather go home and be with the family. It’s part of how I grew up and now I’m craving for the feeling of having the people I love just minutes away. But I know that whatever I’m doing right now, I’m supposed to be doing and it will lead me towards the right path.

Well, anyway, I’ve been reading this really interesting book: The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business by Charles Duhigg – it’s a good read. It changed my perspective on how my actions are affecting me now, and how I can alter them to improve my health, productivity, or anything you want to improve in life AND business.

I’ll end it here for now and WILL try to update from time to time. I guess it’s good that I don’t have time to update because it means that I am out there, and I don’t do that very often. I’m proud of myself for that, for interacting with the world – as others would say. Good night!

The World in the eyes of a Parent

Okay, I may not be a mother now but I do get the idea of taking care of a child because of my two baby brothers. I may not have worked so hard to get them into this world, but I do get the feeling of being so protective of them too.

It is hard being a parent, let alone be a single parent.

When I was a teenager, about 13 or 14, I usually got irritated and mad at my mom (like all teenagers do) when I don’t get to hang out with my friends somewhere, or when she would not allow me to go to school on my own when everyone else was allowed to. I never got the logic before of why she was too overprotective and I usually felt like she never trusted me with absolutely ANYTHING. You know, the typical teen angst thing.

When I finally got into college, she allowed me more and more to go out with friends. She even allowed me – against her will of course cause she had no choice – to commute to school, which was a bus and two jeep (a Philippine public transportation) ride getting there and around 20mins walk. She started giving me responsibilities when it comes to my brothers and that’s around the time that I was starting to understand her decisions before.

Now that I am 21 (ha, I would like to think that I have matured at this point), I finally realised that she’d always trusted ME, it’s the world and the strangers around me that she didn’t trust. She could not bear with the thought that I would get myself into a negative situation and would not be able to defend myself or be back home for that matter. I realised that parents will always, and I mean ALWAYS – EVEN IF YOU ARE 50 YEARS OLD, be worried and be protective of you no matter what. In their point of view, you will always be this precious little thing that is so fragile and so blissful that it makes them this overprotective, sort-of-paranoid detectives that are always on your case. It is what they do.

Because of this upbringing, I also realised that I am always cautious too when traveling from one place to another. It’s funny, to be honest.

I wanted to share this because I got inspired by my mom. I am temporarily in the UK, thousands of miles from her, and she still worries about me even when she has so many things to worry about there. She still tells me to keep several copies of my passport, IDs, and keep emergency cash. She still reminds me to check a place before going and still reminds me to be cautious of my surroundings, AND I AM 21.

So teens, please give your parents a break. I know you do not understand now, but eventually you will. Just try and avoid getting into heated arguments that are not even worth losing your relationship with your parents for.

Love you mom. And I want you to know, I am safe.

Two Large Cups Of Coffee And Titles Like FOB Songs

This is a random post.

I’ve had a total of four large cups of coffee (size reference: Starbucks’ sizes, only my large cup is a Grande size, Venti is just, I don’t even know if it is normal people large or big foot size large – if that made sense) in a span of three days because of all the assessments. However, as my title implies, I’ve had two large cups on my first day in an attempt to finish at least half of the work load – miserably failed.

It turns out that gulping down two large cups of coffee does not contribute to productivity! Now beware or be aware you guys. I do believe that it helps productivity as it gives you energy, but as the old saying goes – too much of anything is never good. So in the hopes of getting my energy up and productivity up, I ended up so energized I almost palpitated at times. It was almost as if I injected ADHD into my veins or I took drugs. I couldn’t stay put, my thoughts was going flying away into a million different directions that I cannot focus on the task at hand. I ended up wasting most of my time trying so hard to stay put.

So it was 8 in the morning, I had stayed up all night but the energy is still there and the only way to get rid of with was to do a physical activity. I went to the library – from my house to the library it would take up about 10 minutes walk – and searched for more materials to finish my paper. It’s my fourth day now of attempting to finish ONE PAPER. I am almost done though, it only took me four cups of coffee and a whole lot of reading.

So the lesson? Take drugs instead. HAHAHA, NO I AM KIDDING!

The lesson is to try and avoid procrastinating. Avoiding procrastination to me is such an obstacle I feel the need to create a special rehabilitation group for procrastinators (or does it exist?) Well, that and avoid using coffee to get productive. The best way to be productive I guess is to STOP BEING A LAZY BUM, KASH.

That’s all I wanted to randomly share. It’s a good experience too because I’ve never had trouble procrastinating before – weirdly, and in a sense that only makes sense to me right now (or if it makes sense to any one else, you are not alone).

Yeah, bye for now. Leaving you once again with another song. My go to channel for relaxing while studying: The Vibe Guide (https://www.youtube.com/user/thvbgd)

2015

It’s a new year and I still forget to post at least once a week! *laughs* Blogging is really something you need to put time and effort on, I guess. And maybe, I’ll have more time once I’ve finished Uni and gotten a boring ol’ job in an office with a desk, and this will be my outlet for innovative ideas and thoughts.

Anyway, enough about that. So for 2015, I have started the oh-so-famous 365 days of Happiness, on my Instagram account mainly. And I’ve had an incredible start of 2015 as we were on a trip in London!

My friends and I got to see most of the sites that people crowd and line up for, and since it was a holiday, there were a lot, LIKE A LOT, of people from different countries and cultures but all wanting to do the same thing – sightseeing.

On our first day – which was 31 of December by the way, we familiarized our selves first with the tube. It was crazy confusing because they had a lot of tube lines from one point to another, having exchanges from one point to another as well. But I must say, the system in London for tube lines are great. It is color coded, labeled well, and there are maps provided on each station. We mainly used tube lines and undergrounds more than any other transportation because well, we didn’t know how. :’)

If you are planning to go to London for a long vacation, say a week or so, then I suggest you get a London Pass (all details here: http://www.londonpass.com/?aid=238&gclid=CMWRqcjygcMCFQHJtAodGQ8AYQ) because it would save you the trouble of queueing for a ticket and the queueing for the actual ride, and it would probably save you from costs as well. While you are at it, might as well get an Oyster Card for the Tube, Tram, Buses, and many more different transportation available for this card (all details here:https://account.tfl.gov.uk/oyster?App=8ead5cf4-4624-4389-b90c-b1fd1937bf1f&returnURL=https://oyster.tfl.gov.uk/oyster/security_check). It has a £5 deposit – which you can get back once you return the card, and you can easily load it up on any station.

If you are planning to go for a short period of time, then I suggest you weigh your options on getting an Oyster Card against getting an All Day Rider – unlimited all day travel. See, what we did was to get an Oyster Card even if we stayed for only four (4) days because we mainly walked around the city to see more of the sights, and to save on transportation as well.

So, yeah, we got to see a lot of places because we made a roadmap on what to see first and how to roam around without having additional costs. See the map below:

Map

We encircled the ones we wanted to see first and then we tried to see the other places that we were not able to see. Unfortunately, four days wasn’t really enough for a London Tour.

The highlight of the trip was probably the London Eye Experience. We rode the London Eye at night and the view of the city was just absolutely breath-taking. I did not have my camera with me so my phone had to do.

View From London Eye

So that’s how I spent my holidays. It was quite expensive but every penny worth it.

Day 11 and 12: Bruises, Cuts, and First Aid Kits

The title would seem like I have been in a bad situation. However, I was not. I’ll explain it in parts.

Bruises:

I think I’ve mentioned that I joined Volleyball Society here in Chester (yey sports!) and as a result of not being in shape and of not playing the sport for years, I got slight bruises on my arm. The taster was not harsh and not really intense, but what is up with the ball? It was inflated to be like a basketball or something, and I have the type of body that bruise easily.

Cuts:

Being away from home is tough; being away from home with people who KNOWS how to cook is tougher. You might say, oh you could just buy or take out food from restaurants and grocery stores. I would love to do that, not because I do not know how to cook but I sometimes get lazy, BUT it is costly. People tell me not to convert the currency here to the currency back home, but during the first few days – and it might take me weeks – it’s like I’m doing it by habit. And boy, is it expensive here.

So while I was cutting some veggies and meat, I accidentally cut myself. Fortunately, it’s quite small and nothing serious.

First Aid Kits:

Also, I have stocked medicines, band aids, and sanitizers. It’s in my upbringing that we keep a stock of those things. Especially pain killers. Oh my, what would I do without them. Migraines are terrible, but since I’ve arrived here I rarely got them. Back home, I usually get that really really painful-one-side-of-your-brain type of migraine for at least 3 days.

I think that’s about every thing I wanted to share. I’m about to clean my room and do laundry for the rest of the day.

I’ll leave you with some..clean up music? Lol

Cheers!

1. Oxford Comma by Vampire Weekend

2. Buddy Holly by Weezer

3. Stacy’s Mom by Fountains of Wayne

4. Pour Some Sugar On Me (The Maine version)

and finally,

5. She Moves In Her Own Way by The Kooks

Day 10: Trying to keep on track

Second day of classes for the week. We had business dissertation earlier, and like any other module we have, it’s at ‘100mph’ as they call it. I’m still thinking of a topic or a certain area to research on. All I have so far is this: The viability of Coffee Shops (e.g. local, Starbucks, or Costa) in the UK against the viability of Coffee Shops in the Philippines.

I chose to do a comparison for the UK and the Philippines, basically because it’s where I am from. However, I wanted to do something even more specific right now. I just can’t get on the right track or the path that I wanted. I’m still thinking though, any ideas dear friends? I usually run to my guitar for creative thinking. Sadly enough, I wasn’t really capable of bringing my guitar with me – with my huge luggage and hand-carry bag (includes my heavy laptop, camera, and the sort).

Then in the evening, it’s weird for me that they start really late too, we had a taster for Volleyball. I was thinking of joining Swimming but then again, I thought of the weather and temperature here (still not used to it). Bench-warming the bench because – haha – I did not bring my trainers (rubber shoes), not that I had any because a-duh I like wearing my converse when playing. So, I still have to buy one if I really wanted to play.

Well, that’s all I can really share for tonight or in the other parts of the world, today.

I’ll leave you again with another lovely song (maybe I’ll do this out of habit, I don’t know).

Cheers!

Day 7 to 9 (I think): First Day of Class

I keep forgetting to update this on a daily basis, and now I’ve literally forgotten how many days I have to cover, and which day I am on. Anyway, from Friday until Sunday, we obviously did nothing but to walk around the City Centre (again), and bought groceries that are good for a week.

Then, yesterday (which was Sunday), we attended a mass. It was really different from what I’m used to back in the Philippines. However, the ‘church community’ – I’m just guessing they already know each other for quite sometime now, was really friendly and they welcomed us with warm greetings and hand shakes. So overall, it does’t really matter for me how the mass was offered, as long as I was able to give thanks.

Finally, today was our first day of classes. It’s quite difficult to adjust to the method that they have here. It’s all very independent learning but I find it good and effective because it means that you really have to work hard and not expect everything to be spoon-fed to you. I quite like the library in Chester as well because they have a huge collection of useful books – which I’m afraid cannot be accessed in a Philippine Library (we have to work on that *wink*). Being the bookish person that I am, I feel so comfortable inside the Library.

Anyway, that is it for today. I only have one class tomorrow and it’s at 5PM. What am I supposed to do in the morning? Lol.

I’m still adjusting to the time here, because it feels so slow. So, when I go to sleep at 10PM, I keep waking up at 2 or 3 in the morning thinking I’ve had a good 8 hours of sleep already. It feels that long anyway.

I’ll leave you with The Narrative’s lullaby-like song Eyes Closed.

Cheers!

DAY 2 and 3: Shopping til We Dropped

So yesterday, from Manchester, we travelled through Liverpool and saw Liverpool John Lennon Airport (awesome, but I was too tired to take out my camera, and I kept falling asleep at 4 in the afternoon! It’s because of my body clock) and arrived here in Chester! Finally.

So what we did when we arrived here was to buy necessary things such as a duvet for the bed in my dorm, towels, and a couple of ready to eat food. It was such a long walk from the dorm to the City Centre and it was as cold as when we first arrived in Manchester. Jeez. So I have decided that I am getting a bike, once I’ve learned all the traffic rules.

Then today, I continued my shopping. I recently bought two new pair of jeans, a laundry basket, a bath rug, and a blanket. I forgot to buy one yesterday so last night I was FREEZING, even though my windows are closed and we didn’t have air condition in the room. And it’s only autumn here. I’m terrified for winter nights.

Lol, that’s all for today. We’ll be going to a club later tonight, Rosie’s. The Global Guide rep for our group told us it’s one of the best places to go to for a night out.

Cheers!

Forever Summer

Summer is finally here, well in the Philippines at least, I don’t know about you guys. I do prefer cold weather though, just because it is easier to get cozied up, drink tea or coffee and read a really good book. However, summer is also really great because we get to enjoy the BEACH.

Okay, the last time I blogged about what I’ve been up to was about my final papers (assessments), the competitions – GEE and Google Online Marketing Challenge, and the internship. Let’s not forget though that it’s summer. So my friend and I went to the biggest dance party in Manila, which was held last 5 April 2014 in Circuit Makati. (Sorry for the low quality image, this was taken with my iPod 4th gen)

or what's left of it

my ticket or what’s left of it

My summer started out really well this year, I must say! It was a RAVE from 5pm til 4am! 11 hours of RAVE, can you imagine? Well, I bet it’s nothing compared to Tomorrowland and Ultra Music Festival but it was still really fun. I can even describe it in one word. AWESOME.

For the first couple of sets, local DJs played, which was really cool too because they had this international-level skill in what they do. Come nightfall, international DJs went on stage, and that’s when the crowd started to really move. I’m getting nostalgic just writing about this. I can not get over how pretty DJ Helena was and how pretty awesome Alesso was. Total eargasm.

I admit I’m not a pretty strong dancer but in those moments we were all like ‘whatever!’ People moving to the music, singing along to the songs, feeling as if the song was sinking into your soul, everyone were friends and nobody really cared what’s going on outside of that event. It was all carefree and it really took off the stress I’ve had these past couple of months, and I got to share it with a really good friend of mine.

So, for those who wanted to go to Tomorrowland but never had the guts to do it, I suggest you do it. It’ll be an experience you’ll never forget, or at least any dance party you’ve been wanting to go. The experience will be an ‘in the moment’ kind of fun.

I guess that’s all for tonight, I’ll leave you with the forever awesome Alesso with the forever one of the greatest bands ever, OneRepublic!

 

Cheers!